Now I Know

Now I know,

that through absence of love

You teach me how to love unconditionally.

In the time of war,

through absence of peace

You teach me to stay sovereign in the storm.

In the time of darkness,

through absence of sun

You teach me to appreciate small cracks of light in the darkest clouds.

In my time of weakness,

through absence of human power

You teach me to rely entirely on You.

In my hardest times,

In the moments I feel most powerless

The moments I feel most fragile

The moments I feel most alone

I know, Lord

that You are the most present.

You (Are My Muse)

You

You are special, my boo

You really are

In my life, there hasn't been anyone

quite like you

You make me feel

butterflies in my stomach

You fill me with your love,

like an empty cup

little by little made full

You make my mind work like a drug addict's

dopamine rushing through

making me can't have enough of you

It scares me sometimes

to fully try to understand

what you're doing to me

But a lover and protector you are,

oxytocine surges and calms me

everytime I put my arms around you

You are someone

my mind always ponders about

Your presence and company

never ceases to make you worth my while

You make me think of our days ahead together,

"Our" days ahead,

a tower I was always scared of building before

because I haven't had enough mortar

throughout all my life collecting;

Funnily, you

are the producer of the mortar itself (heehee).

Just kidding my dear

Truthfully said, you constantly give me substantial meaning to love you.

Please stay with me, love

I'll be whole being with no one else

because if you ask me

"Do you love me?"

I try to provide you real measurement, my dear

I can't grasp, touch, take love and show it you

But one thing I know

Everytime I look at my future,

You are already standing there.

You

You are my melody

Wherever I go, you're always around

You are my every lyric

to every single song that ever touches me

and changes me never the same

You are my beat

Beat to the song, beat to my heart

You are my voice

One of the reasons why I'm still capable of whole-heartedly singing.

You are

You are my everything

You are my muse {}

March 14th, 2016

Happy White Day, dear ❤️

From: Sheilla Khonada

To: Kevin Edro

I am here to serve you.

Dear medical friends,

You will be a doctor.

I will be a doctor.

Soon,

sooner than we expect.

Time flies;

they will no longer call you by name.

You will be granted a calling of grace

A 'healer'.

"Hello doc."

Have we stopped to think

about what a 'healer' really means?

Do we know already

what a real healer does?

You may have realized

that to speak matter-of-factly,

we dedicate our service fully

not to the faith we believe in.

We give all our life's worth

to humanity,

to the well-being and peace of people

to recover souls and families

to heal the broken in spirit.

Doctors love all people, don't we?

We have to.

Have I?

Have you?

But how can we love other people

if we don't firstly love and embrace our own souls?

We make ourselves our enemy.

A colleague enemy.

We tend to make another our enemies.

But hold,

Whom is actually worth calling enemy?

That friend

who speaks behind your back

isn't your enemy.

That bartender

who got your order wrong on purpose

also isn't your enemy.

That stranger on the road

who incessantly honks at your car

isn't, too.

We sometimes forget

that there is a spectrum

of paradigm in our society

and we are created in diversity -

and we also forget

that there is no 'enemy'

except

those killing human rights,

and anyone in support of violence,

and those in favor

of suffering of the people.

Those 'enemies' need healing.

And that is where we come to help.

That is what pulls us apart

from other paramedics and health providers.

That is our job

to recover and restore

both the body and the soul,

both the transgressors and the transgressed.

To black and white,

to rich and poor,

to the educated and illiterate,

to religious and not,

to sane and troubled,

to the peaceful and broken.

I am Jesus' daughter

and therefore,

I will do likewise,

and I shall serve like Him.

Therefore it is to all nations

I dedicate my service to.

I will serve Him

in spirit and in truth

just so people will see

not from what I've done,

but from what they feel;

Through the healing they've received

and the joy they encounter,

people can really comprehend "blessing"

and they'll experience the feeling of "being blessed",

that heaven is really up there

and heaven is down here on earth, too.

I am here to serve You.

I am here to serve you.

Will you join me, too?

-SK

Concretely Abstract

Regarding all of my thoughts;

I have always been trying

to rationalize the irrational,

just to find out

not all things can be explained

concretely concrete.

Sometimes they could be

concretely abstract.

Just like love -

the little feeling

the little abstract emotion

that makes you do all things,

accept all things,

cover all things,

and love

is the only abstract thing

that is most concrete in this world.

A Letter to You

My dearest friend,

Are you a brave one?

Only brave people can fall in love.

Love and trust are attributes of the strong.

Because once you've given your all

and watch them burn to the ground

It will take everything inside you

to let anyone truly hold you again

in any given future.

It is humane,

it is meant to shape you.

But what is it to life

if you don't love;

and what is love

if you don't take risks;

and what are taking risks for

if you don't trust?

You will love and trust eventually,

but a person can't stand long

with only one feet holding on.

And if you ever one day

let yourself fall truly in love again;

Do always remember:

love comes with strength,

and strength will give you bravery,

and bravery will grow trust.

And with only pure love in your heart,

everything will be

messy

mess

mes

me

m

me

men

mend

mende

mended.

It shall heal.

I will love and trust you.